4AM

4am is letting your friend Jacob into his dorm because he went on a walk.
4am is telling people you love to go to sleep even though you're currently awake too.
4am is bleary eyed acceptance of the beauty around you.
4am is singing in the rain, cliché as it may be.
4am is taking your cat socks off after 21 hours and breathing.
4am is quiet.
4am is heartfelt.
4am is good.

Alchemy

It lasted three years

Three years too long

I became obsessed

Borderline creepy

It scared you

In retrospect it scares me

I’m sorry

For every weird thing I did

For almost ruining it all

For making you cry

I still don’t know why

What I do know is that it was a bad decision

I’ll leave you with your wrench

Ed will come and help you now

Grief

I swear you don’t cause me grief

It always fills me with hurt

When your tears are as blue as a reef

I swear you don’t cause me grief

My feelings have not been brief

A tear in my favorite shirt

I swear you don’t cause me grief

It always fills me with hurt

Let Me Go

All of a sudden you have vanishėd

Yesterday we were together, happy

Now I feel like I have been banishėd

It didn’t seem like we were being poor and sappy

We held hands while watching Lord of the Rings

I want to leave and live in an abbey

Emptiness will soon cause my soul to bring

Its blank scarrėd face scribbled with ruin

There is no longer any way to sing

If you love me let me become fluent

The music has exited from my heart

Like I’ve been attacked by a mad bruin

Songlyric

It cannot be found

And yet you are stuck aground

I wish I could hear your sound

Spinning me upside down

Life feels like a mountain’s frown

Or like I’ve just received a crown

Of guilt

F5

Life can be refreshed, it can be reborn

Nothing is final and you don’t need to mourn

There is always something that you can do

Even when life becomes hellish and you fall through

Just refract all of your enemies’ scorn

Your feelings are something that can be worn

Rip them from your hand like a thorn

Eventually you will pay your due

Life can be refreshed

Everything may be blasting around you like a bleeding horn

There’s no way to become unborn

You are no longer askew

You don’t have a wait in a queue

Healing will come from being torn

Life can be refreshed

Your Own Love

Love is warm like magma burning always                       

Love is cold like air from an old freezer                               

Love can open you up; window in May                             

Love can shut you; stabbed like old Caesar                  

Love lifts you up, ballooning in the air                              

Love pushes you down into a deep hole                        

Love is a gamble, a vagrant light flare                              

Love is constant,  holding onto your soul                         

Love clicks, pushing on your inner earlobe                    

Love tricks, visceral illusions in thought                      

Love is infinite, flying like a probe                                 

Love is fickle; it changes all for naught                           

It doesn’t matter who you are, I say                              

You can find love and make it work some way

Ready to Start

Feeling quite a lot of pain

Like I’ve been beaten with a cain

Suffering of a broken heart

The end would be a good start

Coaster of Love

The soul is taken on an adventure

Through the rollercoaster of love

Makes you feel young even when you’re still young

Rollicking and rolling for the sake of a good time

Through the rollercoaster of love

Highest highs and lowest lows

Not old yet still plenty young

It is a journey for two

Highest highs and lowest lows

It’s a coaster of communication

Journeying along us two

Forever would be ideal

A coaster of communication

Like a game of Telephone

Lasting forever would be ideal

Taking the soul on an adventure

POETRYGONEBAD

Together we are like liquid.................

I relish every second we’ve committed..........

My best moments revolve around us

Everyone thinks we’re gross on the bus

We are kind of shmoopy, I suppose..

It gets pretty exhausting to stay in such a pose

That could have been solved with forethought

Hecklers are becoming too common a plot

Yuck, they say. Stop, they say. Even boo.

Ouch. That hurts. I’m human too.......

Ugh. This love poem ended differently than I predicted.

Times with You

I never know what to feel

A lost connection made with you

As blank as the clearest ciel

I never know what to feel

From my insides I try to heal

The rawness of a few

I never know what to feel

A lost connection with you

Social Media

A boy checks Facebook

Twitter

Instagram

He has a new follower

Nice

It’s even a girl

Yes

He looks at her pictures

Wow

An attractive female specimen followed him

He texts his friend

His friend says

Nice

A week passes

He checks Instagram again

The girl unfollowed him

He texts his friend

His friend says

Hey man, being blue is better than being over it

Don’t quote songs, Carl

Sorry

One little tap

Made him so lonely

The Internet sucks

3M

I pick up a Post-It

And write the Names of those who Love Me

There are a few Names on There

The Day and the Night

The Soul of Music

Intelligence itself

My Mother and Father

A few Friends

Maybe even a Teacher

There is one thing that is Conspicuously Absent

My Own Name

Alone with my Thoughts

Self-Love would be Enough

To solve My Problem

But my Mind is still so Desolate

Absence

What is loneliness but the absence of presence?

Alone in your mind’s pleasance

Covered by hidden leaves

Burying yourself in reams

Hiding

Time is biding

Can’t hear them chiding

No one is guiding

An invitation is sent out

To your garden of “life”

When no one comes around all you do is pout

Maybe this is why you feel so much strife

Pillar of Salt v2

My tears taste really salty

I don’t like it

If I wanted salt, I’d cook some asparagus and eat it with butter

It’s like the ocean on my face

My parents don’t acknowledge it at all

My friends don’t appreciate it at all

I’ll dump some wet salt on them and see how they like it

Then maybe they’ll all care enough

To fix my lonely clock

Like a perverse watchsmith

I’d encourage them to dig through me with a screwdriver

Tightening my loose screws

Stopping me from leaking the oil of emotion

I don’t like showing my feelings

Fulfilling

There are those that buy pets

Others turn to alcohol

Sometimes they even bet

Experiencing a total recall

Either way they’re all empty

But still full of loneliness

You don’t feel friendly

Take the express

To friendship if you would

I wish I could

Meme

I have not seen light for days

The dark ricochets inside my brain

It is my only friend

I am an alien on my own planet

And it is brutal

Eating away at me

Acid being poured on bare flesh

Oh God I’m so alone

Deafheaven

Finding the joy of nothingness
Getting lost in the galaxy of a voice
Grasping another's soul is an emerald of light
Illuminating that to feel is a choice
White peeks through your cradling grasp
Showing every crease of memory in your hand
The eye stares down a reflection of itself
Looking for a perfect place to land
Who ever thought words could mean so much

Self-Titled

At first sight
I thought you looked like
A jerk
But
You had the same
Shirt as me
Does that mean
That I'm the jerk
Because I
Was jealous
Of your life
Based on
The little
That I saw
Deceptively
Empathetic
I know
Nothing of you
But in that moment
I wanted
What you had
So I assumed
That you are
Undeserving of
What you had
At least I know
You have good
Taste in music

Wait

I lie down to wait
Even though I just ate
Soon to hear from you
To stop me from being blue
Don't make me feel any hate

Sitting at a mental gate
If you gave me the key, that'd be great
Hoping for something new
I lie down to wait

Please don't berate
I didn't mean to talk about your weight
You don't actually look like Gru
I was probably dreaming too
I'm really sorry mate
I lie down to wait

Overwatched

Why is there a Genji?
We need a healer
I don't care about your brother Benji
He sounds absolutely keel-er
Can you please switch?
Don't you want to win?
I'll throw myself in a ditch
If you don't stop this din
Please stay on the point
Protect your Mercy
This effort must be joint
Don't treat me like Cersei
This has gone poorly
I feel quite sorely
Overwatch is fun, 10/10

Book of Sonnets/Page

Love can be like an empty book unwrit
White blank pages staring back at your face
Words yet to be carved in pale light grit
The mind is not prepared for such grace
Like music thoughts will flow onto paper
To make a work that will last through the age
Mist fills your brain as emotion sifts like vapor
The heart breaks free from its raw bare bone cage
All is now on the sheet to see, be read
You do not care about the fear of flak
Devotion now entering your sole head
Desperate to not seem like a lame hack
But it's too late, you went ahead and took
You accidentally wrote a nice book

Lite/Field of Jewels

There is a light that never goes out
It sits beneath the ocean far from sight
In the depths the glimmer draws in
Fish and octopi
They wonder why it is there
Bizarre and glossy
Shimmering
But you know why it is there
It is there to taunt you, mock you
Laugh at how you can't get to it
Unfortunately
All you truly desire is to possess that light
Like some kind of pathetic movie villain
You want the one thing you can't have
And even then you don't know
What it is
The soul of Marcellus Wallace
It shines and tempts you
But you can't look at it
Take it or
Embrace it
You think you can dive to it
But the pressure is far too great
Like a paper cup it collapses and shrivels
Just like your desire
Over time it leaks happiness
Flitting with the eight and two fifteens
Rising like a beanstalk
Unlike you
A viscous mixture
You swallow it
And start to choke

Ode to Wind

Wind is the greatest emotion of love
It makes a leaf of the heart float with ease
All is lifted, even the tender dove
Nothing emphasizes like the breeze
Hair whips around
There is no need to be inside
Stick your heart out your head like a hound
There is no chance you could have died
This atmosphere is magic
Close, far, everywhere
Nothing has ever been tragic
It makes you feel debonair
Oh Wind!

Bigger

The soul is part of a larger whole
The art of two people forming one heart

Agh

A blinding flash - agh!
What the hell did I just see?
It was just a cat.

Living

Love can't always work out
Yet it will all be okay
You'll live to the end

Birds/Rotten

When you have love
You feel like a soaring dove
But more often than not
It makes you rot

Dog

A dog is better than a log
For companionship
Like your personal Queen
She's about as smart as a Bean
But she sits there and waits
Cuter than a frog
Dogs are dope

Saxophone

The mind is a jazz solo
It has structure
But not much
It is up to the creator
To organize it
And make it flow
A delectable river of sound
Fondue for the ear
What is forgotten
Is that a soloist needs
A rhythm section
For back-up
It's hard to do it alone
You can hire a jazz band
But you can't hire sanity

Pillar of Salt

My tears taste really salty
I don't like it
If I wanted salt, I'd cook some asparagus
And eat it with butter

BFF

I swear I have one friend
His name is Ned
He wears a cardigan and a bowler hat
Ned likes to dance the tango
He's teaching me
College is tough, he says
We meet up after class to talk sometimes
He's got a way with words
Apparently people like words
What's that, Mom?
Ned isn't real?
Well then.

Hotling Bling

Sentiment is really weird
I am attached to a sock
With a spooky face
Because it was hung
In the name of art
There's no intention to mock
Though it seems out of place
If a song is sung
It wouldn't be smart
For it to win Best Rap Song

Percussion

People are like marimba

They have a range

Of highs and lows

Each part makes

A different noise

Or emotion

I'd rather take a marimba

They complain less

The Postal Service

I would give up coffee for you
I'd rather not, but you're worth it
I would give up my records for you
I'd rather not, but you're enough
I would give up cats for you
Maybe not actually
I'd rather have both
Because I kind of really like both of you

Washing Machine

Do clothes
Wear out
Faster
From being worn
Or
From laundry?

Cactus

You make me feel like a happy cactus
That probably feels the same
As regular happiness
Oops
I like cacti

Happy

Seeing you is like learning to breathe
My eyes revel in the splendor of your universe
You are the lilt of a flower of music
Unfurling for the wind alone to take in
Being near you is to be alone yet at peace
Can a soul ask for any more?

You make me want to be happy

Suit & Tie

I wear my skin like a tasteless suit
Hoping to impress you
My arm is rigid behind a shield,
But honestly it's see-through
If you treat everything like a cry for help,
Does anyone even know what to hear?
Laughter is a doubled-edged sword
Don't worry, there's nothing to fear
I'll never let it cut you